I am not quite sure what exactly spurred this feeling in me. I have been reading a lot of articles and watching documentaries lately. That might be it, but maybe it’s the fact I really can not bring myself to give a fuck about everyone’s cause or belief. I honestly don’t give a rat’s ass about my own, it’s all just a bunch of back ground noise anyway.
I was reading an article on The Blaze, it was about an eighth grade biracial kid who was the victim of a hate crime. Apparently, someone spray painted something racist on his house about not needing him on the football team. Turns out it was likely the boy’s mother, and it was covered up by the boy’s father. Police are still investigating to get the whole story.
Anyway, I read the comments below the article. It was crying about “liberal” this and “liberal” that, but nothing was said about the political leanings of anyone in the story. Secondly, it was a lot of outrage about “Whites” are portrayed, blamed, pigeon-holed in society, and simultaneously there was anger about using racism as a tool to get media attention. There were a few extreme comments…the only one shot down was an anti-Semitic comment. Not the comments about fat, white baby mommas, and skinny thug baby daddys. Not even the comments explaining how races should separate into their own nations.
As a reader of the article, who happens to be conservative & multiracial, I was shocked that no one noticed the hypocrisy the comments evoked. The mother and father of the boy were just shitty parents looking for attention and probably a few gifts, deplorable all on it’s on with no political connotations. The comments then used any tidbit to propel their own agendas whether they related to the article or not.
This was the time I decided…Fuck Politics…all of them…good & bad…Done with it!
Then over the course of maybe a few weeks, or months maybe, I see people become wildly irrational because they have a new pet project, or cause. It is as if their originally heart-felt energy was tainted by a need to feel justified. It does not matter which cause it is, but suddenly there is a hidden war waiting to explode tomorrow if we don’t all rally the troops and march off in raw emotionally fueled activism. If you do not get it 100% then you become the opposition, and other outcasts of the cause start rallying themselves. In an endless cycle of BULLSHIT!!!
The causes we might believe in are not a reason to forget common sense. I was always around people who talked about differences of opinion, not to change minds, but to open a way to understand and be understood. Once a girl cried uncontrollably because I said I believed that everyone is prone to a certain degree of prejudice. She insisted that she was not, and I said I understood but she wept as if I accused her of being a grand dragon of the KKK. I don’t believe everyone is a racist asshole, just that everyone has preconceptions that are not based on fact, but broad generalizations.
It is like nowadays you can’t be a person existing in the world. You have to fight for something. Whatever ethnic group you belong to is now the cause you fight for or else you are a traitor. Whatever sexuality category you may or may not fall into…well, you can’t just be comfy in your own skin you gotta fight for everyone else. Id you have crossed eyes and smell like cabbage? Well call up the carnies there is going to be a riot on the steps of congress. You have faith in anything different from me? You are an agent of the Devil, science, or god, and must be destroyed.
The whole “If it isn’t us then it is wrong” mentality.
I am a very cranky & pessimistic person, by and large. I also believe in a lot of various things most people do not, but I do not care if you believe them as well. I like talking about my beliefs…Hell I like talking about your beliefs. I DO NOT like hearing people spew hatred solely because the other team does it too. WAAAAAHHH!!
It was this mindset that barrages me daily that made me say…FUCK IT!…AAAANNNNDD….Done With It!
I watched documentaries about people opening themselves up to the universe and their inner truth. That they were their own boss. The people then proceeded to get naked when an elderly man with long white hair told them to, and did as he dictated for a week or more. Get naked and introduce yourselves to one another.
I love your energy. I hope that I am in some small way able to facilitate you reaching your own truth.
To which, the other person replied, after a lengthy pause:
I like you. My vagina is tingling.
I believe this scholar has found her own truth, albeit in the most amazing way possible. There were other annoying things that had me yelling at the documentary, but they were mostly just people regurgitating sound bytes they have found in fortune cookies and song lyrics. The thing that made me angry was The White haired leader when told by a member of the retreat (his son-in-law we find out later) that he was worried about being a bad father replied with this gem:
Do not let yourself be weighed down by supposed obligations.
Keep in mind, this is the grandfather of the “supposed obligation” and father of the “supposed obligation’s” mother. Seems a bit odd for a wise old nympho to say it is better to focus on finding yourself than accepting the effects of what you have done while finding yourself. This was a circus of narcissism, not merely ego that’s too light of a word. There were sensual massages that normally? ended in violent crying, and orgies that, after finished, everyone met and discussed what it meant to them.
It made me angry mainly because everyone on the documentary went on and on AND ON about how spiritual they wanted to be because it was the only way to gain understanding. To accomplish this they fucked, sucked, prodded , fingered and jerked each other to pretend nirvana as Hawaiian Gandalf sat erect in a corner.
It was as if everyone was neglecting to see that if they all were spirits prior to this and decided on a skin body vacation, then why dear lord why? do you try to remove yourself from the reality of day-to-day life? Spirits don’t have to work minimum wage jobs, but we do, because we thought as spirits “Hey let’s go on that new Earth ride the Milky Way just installed!” That’s like standing in line at the Spinning Tea Cup ride and then when you finally get on the ride you imagine you are standing in line.
That being said when it comes to doublespeak bullshit…Done With It!
Last but not least, I just think we could all just go back to being ourselves. No adjectives, titles, or pretense. We can be people and talk about stuff and not shut one another out with intricate and stupid social barriers!
I want to say, “Hey, my name’s Erik. I am mixed, conservative, kind of christian, but kind of more than that. I like to say inappropriate things, not because I believe it but because it tickles me. I don’t think I am better than you, but even if I did I won’t pretend I am perfect. I don’t care what you do with your genitals unless they are in direct contact with my own. Nice to meet you I would enjoy being friends and talking about all these amazing differences without it getting weird, or judging each other. Because I am done with all the posturing and bullshit…Done with it!! ….Sound good?”
- Fuck Politics: A Rant (loudborough.com)
- On Documentaries (aurorablacke.wordpress.com)
- Kanye West Accused of Anti-Semitism by Anti-Defamation League (pitchfork.com)
- Tight Skirts (lerionkathegeek.wordpress.com)
- Coming Out As Biracial (wacac.wordpress.com)
- Teen Football Player’s Home Hit With Racist Graffiti (4umf.com)
- Japanese People Are Fucking Nuts! (dutch104.wordpress.com)